i turned 21 inoctobber and the night of my birthday i decided to stay home i had previosly been drug raped and we celebrated my brothers on the same day. i had a great night and crashed in my room about 2 am. i woke up at 5 am unable to c who it was but felt him. he was layin on his side and after a moment of being frozen i grabbed his neck and hit his as hard as i could and yelled for help. nobody answered so i made a run for the door when i realized he was kicking me away from him. by the time others woke up and looked in my room we couldent find anybody but my hand was bruised at first they tried to say maybe i was dreaming it and hit the headboard but then i looked on the couch and there was a guy that wasent there 5 minites before that when i woke him up i saw blood on his lip i knew imeadeatly that it was him and went to get somthing to hurt him with when i returned my father was chocking him and he passed out my mom was holding me back from injuring him and later the cops came and found his blood and his earing in my bed. he got taken in imeadiatly. unfortunatly i find out later i am not the only gitl a 14 yaer old girl was kissing him consentually at first but then he proceded to hold her down rape her and threw her out of a 2 story window. the girl was so scared she dident show up to court and all charges got droped. the guy who did this has not only did this 2 times but i have also been told about another girl who was at a party and when passed out in a room he sexually assaulted her. I think i should try to get in touch with her but am not sure?. not only is this monster already out on 40 days served for my asault because he hired the best lawyer money can buy and toke a plea bargan because he blamed it on cocaine he said he had done earlier that night so now is on probation and just has to take a class but is walking arund school like it never happend ya thats right this is a 17 year old kid i cant even get a restraining order against because he has more rights than me because he is a minor(oh and his mom is blind so if i try to sue him i have to sue his mom because she is in charge of him,. due to this my ful time job fired me elegally when i toke dr written time off and due to the sexual assault i feel my life has been taken away. i am curntly diagnosed with ptsd sever depression, sever anxiety, i am going through withdrawls from vicoden because i got addicted when i started taking them because i have ti wait till the 19 to get my back looked at because i dont have insurance and i am anerexic i am 5'1 and wiegh 95lb i have alredy started loosing my hair and am definatly malnutricien i am trying to start eating good agian but my tummy is having a hard time getting used to it expecially when i have ulcers. i am so weak i can bearly get out of bed and at times feel so alone i moved in with my boyfriend who has been so great but now i can tell is pulling away big time which still hurts and my family is a loving one but vary disfunctional and stress so i try ot only have small doses to keep myselp sane but on the other hand am still a little hurt nobody really cares. my family just kinda pretends like it never happend. i also have asthma with has been acting up like crazy latly and nobody even comes by to c where i live. i have no help with money and feel so lost and alone.it feels as though my boyfriend has even lost intrest in not only my health but me and i feel like he is the only one i have